leap and the net will appear…

Posted on Sep 24, 2014 in thoughts and ponderings | 3 Comments
leap and the net will appear…

As you may know I’ve recently made a very big decision regarding my working life, waving goodbye to a 13 year long job that was making me unhappy and stressed. I’d been struggling with it for the past year, slowly feeling as though I was less and less able to cope with what it threw my way and becoming less and less happy in the process. My husband had been telling me for a while to leave, but it never seemed like the right time, I always came up with an excuse or things always seemed to get better before I got the chance to make any solid decisions. After all what else would I do, where would I go, how would I ever find a team so special as the one I had built? I’d been there for over 13 years, knew the job inside out and loved the community I worked in, surely I’d never find anything even similar….

But there comes a point when you just know that things have to change. I surprised myself and everyone else when I resigned. I didn’t have another job to go to, and spent the next week agonising over what I had done, was it the right decision or was I being completely crazy? I’m usually quite risk-averse so this was quite out of character for me. My husband had told me he would support me and I could take some much needed time off, spend more time on my creative business and then look for a new job in 2015. I yo-yoed between tentative excitement and ominous dread, sometimes feeling that this could be the most exciting thing I had ever done in my life or the most stupid.

As time has gone by I’ve started to think more seriously about other realistic options, getting the website and shop online and starting applying to christmas fairs. A temporary job offer came up too followed by some other leads which could result in something I really want to do. I’ve had a request to go into a school and work with the children on an art project, which is something I’m really interested in developing. I’m still open to any┬ánew opportunities and I’m hoping that these lifestyle changes can really bring something new and exciting into my creative career.

Over the last few years many people have asked me when I was going to give my job up and work on my creative business full time, and I always laughed them off, saying that I liked the balance the way it was, some time for a regular reliable income and some time for creativity. I couldn’t ever envisage being able to alter the balance and still have enough money to pay the bills. I’m still struggling sometimes to imagine that I can do it.

It now seems that I have the opportunity to try it, with a little cushion of reliable income for a short time. Who knows what is around the corner, it’s scary but exciting and I’m determined to make it work. Watch this space.

3 Comments

  1. Zoe Onah
    September 24, 2014

    Love the title. Indeed we must take that leap. What a beautiful heartfelt inspiring blog post

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  2. Lisa
    September 26, 2014

    Thank you for sharing. Your title ‘leap and the net will appear’ was very welcome. I am going through a difficult time after losing my husband to cancer at the end of last year. I need to move house and change location but I have been getting stressed about it. I am sure my net will appear too. X

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    • admin
      September 27, 2014

      Hi Lisa, sorry to hear this. I think these things have a funny way of working out and strange things happen when you do take that leap, wishing you all the best x

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